(Continued from Church Chapter 5 part 1)
I felt the words on my lips, but couldn’t get them out. My thoughts tumbled and I was back in the alley with those thugs and that poor girl. Rain had seen everything, but I didn’t seen or sensed her. My eyes were frozen on her’s as my mind tried now to work out what this staring look was. Rain didn’t seem pleased or concerned. It hadn’t bothered or fazed her either. Pity, I decided. That was what her eyes said, I pity you.
‘What did you say?’ I finally forced out.
‘Nothing. I didn’t reveal myself. I couldn’t risk the exposure. Too many reapers know me or are aware of me. I didn’t know him though,’ Rain explained.
‘But you saw everything I did?’ I pressed.
She nodded and helped me slip the left arm and shoulder guards off. They were added to collection on the floor. Rain stood before me and put her hands to my chest. Her fingers rubbed against the rough cotton of my under robe. She looked down, almost as if she was thinking of pressing her head to my chest too. I waited for her to speak, but she didn’t say anything.
‘Don’t you care about it?’ I asked desperately and grabbed her hands, ‘you could have helped. Maybe then…’
‘No. It’s human life. It’s nothing to do with me. I can’t save people…’ she trailed off.
‘You just take their souls?’ I ended for her.
‘I only take the non-human souls,’ she stated.
I let go of her hands, but they didn’t fall, she kept them against my chest. I pulled her chin up and noticed the determined look on her face. I had no idea what was going through her head, she was so closed to me.
‘Then why did you watch?’ I enquired gruffly.
‘Because…I felt sorry for you and have done since we met,’ she confessed, ‘you are doing tasks you weren’t meant to do and are blind to the job you need to do.’
‘Rain,’ I grabbed her shoulders, ‘do you know something about me? Do you know what I need to do?’
She shook her head and I badly wanted her to be lying.
‘You must tell me!’ I pleaded.
Rain pressed herself to me. She wrapped her arms around my neck and put her forehead to my throat. I could hear her breathing and warmth swapping between us. My hands slipped from her shoulders and wrapped around her upper back. I turned my head and put my cheek to her soft hair.
‘You have to concentrate on finding a way home,’ Rain began, ‘stop wasting your powers on things. Do you remember why you were sent here in the first place?’
‘Not really,’ I said aloud, then give it some deeper thought.
Rain rubbed her face into my robe before looking up at me. It looked like she was about to cry. I had the urge to kiss her.
‘You were going to tell me how you ended up here, remember?’ she recalled.
Keeping one arm around her, I brought the other hand to her face and rubbed her cheek between my thumb and finger. Her skin was soft and warm. A ghost of a smile appeared on her face, then flowered into a real one. She tiled her head slightly and kissed the side of my thumb. Her lips were softer than her cheek. My head emptied and I just wanted to kiss her.
‘Blaze?’ she hummed.
‘I think you’re getting distracted.’
‘You’re the one causing it,’ I pointed out.
Rain pushed away from me, breaking the hold I had on her. She walked over to the bed and sprawled out over the mountain of pillows and blankets, ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t lead you on. I’m bad.’
‘No you’re not bad, Rain,’ I argued and went to sit beside her.
‘You don’t know me. What I’ve done,’ Rain muttered.
I looked down at her. She had shut her eyes and was clenching her fists as if the memories were too hard to deal with. Her hair was scattered out around her and the candle light was making some strands shimmer bronze. Her face scrunched up then relaxed.
‘Confess to me, Rain. I can forgive your sins,’ I said in a low voice, ‘I have the power to release you from them. Just like that man I let go in the alley.’
Rain shook her head, tousling her hair more, ‘you can’t. If the Mestemalum Senātus couldn’t, then nor can you or anyone else.’
‘Not even God?’
‘Not even Him,’ she whispered.
I paused and tried to think what the beautiful, fierce Rain could have done which was eternally unforgiveable. I heard her fighting back a sob and I grabbed her hand. Lying down next to her, I watched her eyes open to blink away small tear drops. I squeezed her hand and she rolled over into me and nestled at my side.
‘You could still tell me. We could find away together,’ I offered.
‘I can never walk in the Light,’ Rain breathed, ‘my path is darkness to the end of time. No one can save or stop me. I’m a lost cause.’
‘I won’t believe it!’ I cried and held her hard.
‘It’s okay, Blaze. I’ve all ready accepted it. And you’re going to have to too. Just like everyone else.’
Like the owners of the notebooks? Like everyone who stayed in the bedroom before me at the Paradise Garden? Surely, someone must have tried to help her? Or is this all recent?
I heard a small snicker, which I knew hadn’t come from Rain and that same hissing male voice from before crept into my head, ‘she’s completely right, Feathers. Nothing can save her. The only way to help her is to give your soul to me.’
‘Rain?’ I uttered.
‘Yeah, I know,’ she responded, ‘just ignore it.’
A sudden bust of cruel laughter filled my mind. I sat up too quickly and pain shot into my head. Pressing a palm to my forehead, I looked over at my sword and thought about grabbing it.
Rain moved from beside me and stood up in a graceful single movement. She walked over to her katana, picked it up and carried on walking. She stopped at the trunk, swept my robe off it and opened it up.
Before I could ask her what she was doing, she had laid the weapon inside and shut the lid. She sat down on top of it, balancing herself on the edge and crossing her arms over her chest. The laughter stopped, disappearing just as fast as it had come. My migraine vanished and I felt an ebb of power returning to me.
‘You do that again, Haku and I’ll slit you in two from bottom to top,’ Rain hissed at the trunk.
‘Ameya, Aijin. I can’t promise that,’ the voice whispered before fading completely.
To Be Continued…